12:26 Am i just arrived home after long day with my "BOY" and my old friends, pretty interesting after long time we didn't see each other ( actually it's less conversation most all the time ) yeah.. watch movie, having dinner, and ended in the STARBUCKS the first place when we know each other, and pretty impressive with what i feel tonight .. stepping back to the time when i spend that day with YOU..., the part of my human being PUSHING me to remember YOU even though i won't ( it's wasting my time ) but i am HUMAN!!!! Ssshhh... this feeling was ruin my mind but i need to move on, i can't stay and stand behind your shadows. We know and understood what's happening around us, i choose to go out from this before everything getting worst ( WORST for me actually ).
Alright if i never take all this risk we will never understand what and why!! we will never learn how life is.., even though YES i know. For all the things i learn about life it's risking all the people i LOVE, my life, my pride, my dignity, but if you never fall deeper you will never realize what life is. I used to say to my self i will never scared with anything or anyone ( except with all animal can fly they're pretty scary for me )  what can make me scared is when i can't be able to make the people i love SMILE, when i lost the trust from them, when the people i love putting me down!!!
Hmmm... anyway i'm only a normal person who had feeling,mind, curiosity ... ( same like other, i think!! ).. It's almost 1:30 Am i should sleep and prepare my self to be tough for another day GOOD NIGHT peep's 




“You can't live your life for other people. You've got to do what's right for you, even if it hurts some people you love.” 
― Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook